my version (altered)

[xatalantax]

from silas7

I don't even know how to use IP logging because I know jack about this stuff. But I'll go disable it anyway. Now I want you to do something for me.

Post something anonymously. Whatever you desire.

A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love - anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly.

You know you want to.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

I have never gotten over him. It has been years. We have become friends again. I will always be in love with him and feel that tug between us, no matter who else I date, no matter how many times I fall in love again. I wonder if he knows. Sometimes I'm absolutely convinced that he does, and sometimes I think he is oblivious.

I guess part of what hurt was that he was able to walk away so easily. Until that moment, I didn't realize there was an imbalance in emotion between us.

It's OK. I don't have to have him as a lover. He makes a great friend. And he's happy with her, really happy in a way I've never seen him and it is so beautiful to behold. I would never have brought that joy to him, although he once enjoyed our time together greatly. And so, it's OK.

But I have never gotten over him entirely and if I still feel this way after this long, I don't think it will ever go away.

[(Anonymous)]

as happy as i am for you guys, i was sad to hear you are moving. i had hoped to build a stronger friendship with you guys, but that seemed to never have happend.

[atalanta.livejournal.com]

I feel that way about quite a few of the people I know around here, unfortunately. Maybe we can still do it?

[(Anonymous)]

I have a (respectful) crush on your intellect and beauty

[(Anonymous)]

when you first showed up on the scene I tried to be friendly. that didn't go anywhere. you only had eyes / time for those people that you saw as important / most popular / attractive. you looked at me and I saw the discounting in your eyes. you dated a couple of the ones that you saw as pretty after that and it didn't work out. but still . . . I've always wondered if you ever realized how much you categorized and marginalized people when you first moved up here and first met them.

[atalanta.livejournal.com]

Hmm. Well, a few things ..

- When I got here I was in a long-distance relationship and was not looking for anyone to date for a long time, you know.

- I don't even find people pretty - in the non-abstract way that matters for dating, I mean - until I'm already getting interested in them. I'm sure I did categorize too much, you're right about that, but it wasn't by prettiness.

- Some of what you perceived was probably more social awkwardness and cluelessness (and shyness) than dismissal.

- I can't tell if you mean this in mostly a friends way or mostly a dating way, but I have only ever been interested in dating a very few people. Whatever it is that decides who those people are is something I'm not consciously privy to, but anyway, if I wasn't interested in that way, it certainly wasn't a judgment about you.

[(Anonymous)]

I don't think I tell you enough how many times your words have helped me.

[atalanta.livejournal.com]

I'm glad they have.

[(Anonymous)]

There was a time, a momemnt, when we were as close as two people can be. It's a moment I'll never forget. Thank you.

[(Anonymous)]

every six months or so they come circling around like buzzards looking for road kill. I wish they'd go get their own lives and leave mine alone.

[(Anonymous)]

your fiance is the best kisser.

[atalanta.livejournal.com]

I know!

[xenoglaux]

damn right I am!

[silas7.livejournal.com]

Sho Nuff!

[(Anonymous)]

my ex was more attracted to you than he was to me... while i was dating him.

[atalanta.livejournal.com]

That's awful.
I hope it wasn't really true - just something said in anger.

[(Anonymous)]

you have a very classic beauty that can make you seem a bit cold at first. until someone gets to know you. you come across as confident so it's hard to see that you're just shy at first. i'm very glad you have ended up with sean. i think he's going to keep you grounded. i also wish that we could have had more time to get to know each other better.

also don't get too thin! you looked painfully thin the last time i saw you.

[(Anonymous)]

I don't think you'd look good in a mullet.

[atalanta.livejournal.com]

I think you are right.

[(Anonymous)]

I think you might be an academic snob and judge people based on where they went to school.

[atalanta.livejournal.com]

Probably. Though I do know better :)

[(Anonymous)]

I have always been attracted to you and wanted to have a torrid affair with you but am not even sure you're into girls :)

[atalanta.livejournal.com]

Not in the torrid affair way, no :)